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Things at home were getting shitty about 2 years after parents’ divorce. Father was returning to sneaking alcohol and being verbally abusive among being an asshole in a few other ways. We finally found a place that will allow us to take all 5 of our pets. Rent is $800/month, split between 3 people. So $267/month rent per person, plus bills.

Probably gonna do special pricing on smaller items and whore out my screen prints and redbubble and For Sale pieces again.

  • Drinking: Candy Cane Tea.

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tl;dr- 

Things at home were getting shitty about 2 years after parents’ divorce. Father was returning to sneaking alcohol and being verbally abusive among being an asshole in a few other ways. We finally found a place that will allow us to take all 5 of our pets. Rent is $800/month, split between 3 people. So $267/month rent per person, plus bills.

Probably gonna do special pricing on smaller items and whore out my screen prints and redbubble and For Sale pieces again.

  • Drinking: Candy Cane Tea.
Life's just kinda. Going, I guess. I submitted a resume to a library and I'm really nervous because I want to work at a library again so badly. I miss it so much, and I actually get emotional and teary-eyed when thinking about my job at my campus library. So, here's to hoping for that. I really, really, really miss having a job where I felt like I mattered (Really only had that at AC Moore and the campus library. It's so-so at Lane Bryant.) and where I really loved what I was doing. 

My mental health has been... Up and down, I guess? I've been bouncing back and forth between the "Meh, things suck but I'll live" and about where I was when I worked at Walmart- which was the ultimate low for me. 

As far as art goes, I'm getting there. Finished my piece for FreeArt-Project, and I've been on and off working on a trade. Finally picked a pose/setup/whatever from thumbnailing and I'm partially through with the sketching. Also been working on and off on a commission for my boss. I'm slowly starting to pick up interest in drawing again, but who knows how long that's going to last? I really miss ceramics and painting. At least the latter, when I get things situated here, I can do. I just need a new palette because my cat was kind enough to knock mine off a table and almost shatter it (thankfully, I had the glass duct taped to a large piece of matboard for a white background to see my paint on and everything stayed in one spot) and the motivation to paint. Have a few palettes saved from the Color-Palettes blog on Tumblr that I wanna use.

That's about it, I guess. I just felt like writing something for some reason.
  • Drinking: Candy Cane Tea.
I submitted a resume for a local public library position and I'm so freaking nervous and alksdjfhalskdjhf
Because z-leppelin is rood. :heart:

I'm gonna use Rhys Aeron Moon because I've been dying to do stuff with him lately.

1. Rhys is a huge closet case. He didn't really grow up in an environment that was too supportive of anything "different," so to speak- especially since he knows that "People are only honest when they're drunk." Because of this massive insecurity, he tried to, as he would say, "fix" himself once by trying to make himself sleep with a woman. It... It did not go well. Things on his end didn't exactly want to "work," due to a complete lack of physical attraction. To make things more awkward, the sight of a certain part of female anatomy made his drunk self a little sick to his stomach (the alcohol kind of helped with that, but he wouldn't dare blame his precious booze). He ended up leaving without so much as an apology, only a slurred, uncomfortable "I, uh, I gotta go."

2. No matter how much he will try and deny it, Rhys is lonely. He envies that everyone around him has someone to come home and wake up to in the morning. All he has is a small, shitty, lonely apartment (that he may end up losing in the near future, either from financial issues, or because the building may become condemned due to its poor condition). Unfortunately, Rhys' fear of his homosexuality being found out and looked down upon keeps him from pursuing this, as does his complete lack of experience in terms of a real relationship. The closest thing he’s had to one was an occasion where he slept with the same person one night and the morning after. He left and returned that evening before leaving to get back on the Warden ship (There were no emotional ties- that’s just the longest he’s spent with one of his one night stands.) because it was conveniently on his way to the docks.

3. The best thing ever to him is being praised/appreciated. This is because his family didn't really have the means to reward the kids with "extras" (toys, candy, etc.) for doing a good job, so Paul and Martha often used praise as a reward instead. He strives to do as good a job as possible, and really appreciates the smallest "thank you" or "good job" in return. A little really goes a long way with Rhys.

4. Because just about all of Rhys' life was spent working or taking care of others, he didn't have time or energy to explore feelings and how to appropriately process or express them. Because of this, he tends to channel his negative emotions in less than favorable ways, such as overworking himself to the point he's so exhausted he can't feel anymore, drinking, or, unfortunately, violent and potentially destructive behavior. This is also one of the reasons he isn't pursuing a relationship. He's afraid things will go terribly wrong.

5. When he's home, he visits with family as much as humanly possible- this includes his deceased parents. Because his mother loved poetry, he always takes a poem book he finds at some book shops and often burns a page or two at her grave so it reaches her in what he assumes (or rather, hopes) is some kind of Heaven-like thing. For his father, the pages are dipped in the whiskey that he and Rhys would always have a glass of together at the end of shifts at the Boar & Stag. He figures it really isn't doing anything, but it kind of brings him comfort picturing that the two are up there having a drink and reading together. On the days he's feeling down, he'll leave the poetry pages folded into (clumsy-looking) paper hearts that his mother taught him to fold as a kid at her grave, and sit and "have a glass with Dad," as he says, which means sitting there for a while and pouring a little whiskey onto Paul's grave with every sip he takes from his own glass.

6. Because he's a pretty big, football player-looking guy (6'5" and 260-ish pounds), Rhys always gets stuck pretending to be a monster, "scary pirate," or anything along those lines when his younger nieces and nephews demand he play pretend games with him. He really doesn't mind- he just hates the back pain when he has to hunch over a little kiddie table when he has to be a friendly dragon or something at tea parties with the little "princesses."

7. His prized possession is his late father's pocket watch. He treats that thing like it's the most valuable resource in the universe. It was a wedding gift from his mother to his father, and the side opposite the watch face has their wedding photograph in it. It's the little piece of his parents he can take with him on the ship. The ticking clock makes him think of home while he's away and helps him fall asleep. He'd be absolutely heartbroken if it were lost or broken.

8. More than anything, Rhys wants to be a father. However, he knows it's really not worth hoping for, as he can't really create a child with his lifestyle, and he doesn't have the means to adopt as a single father and give a child a good life. To make up for this, he spoils his nieces and nephews rotten when he can (meaning, he'd dip into his grocery budget to get them a little something or take them somewhere without a second thought), and still does what he can to make "the kids'," as he calls his siblings, lives as good as he can.

I tag...
AlyOh
DeepSeaKyogre
BeanyCoffee
And whoever else wants to do it.
  • Drinking: Candy Cane Tea.

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themandii Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2016  Professional Digital Artist
*pokes* Was thinkin bout ya today. Thought I'd stop by and say hello 
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Oh hi there. How's it going?
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Pretty good, just working a lot and stuff. Adulting I guess. Lol
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ClockworkMultiverse Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2016
You are clearly a better, and certainly much more detailed, writer and role player than I can ever dream of becoming. I strive to live up to your standards, but I am not sure if I ever will.
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