I'm having the shittiest semester in all of shitdom.
I've realized that, after taking ceramics, I hate making jewelry. I don't mind small things, wire wrapped claws, etc., but... I hate the process of fine jewelry making. While I have enjoyed it for a little, I guess I just feel stuck and have no desire to do it any more. I will be finishing up my thesis work and the cuff I am working on for someone, but... Well, I'm done. In ceramics, I felt like my work was more appreciated. I liked being able to just leave some things to chance. I liked that the professor, studio tech, and other students were so welcoming of different ideas and solutions. I was also genuinely happy when working with it.
Metals, however, it's become something I dread. I'm stuck with it and there's nothing I can do about it. The professor and most of the other students are also kind of iffy. I'm not happy. I feel massively underappreciated for the work, time, and money I put into it. It frustrates me, and there's nothing I can do about it.
I have too much on my plate in general. It's exhausting me, but because I have so much to worry about, I'm losing sleep. I have literally no social life. It's 13 or 14 hour weekdays, and my entire weekends are gone because of my second job. I can't afford to quit said second job, however. It's to the point where I don't even really have time to go grocery shopping, much less hang out with people. It's making me feel isolated and it's terrible.
Today, I found out that one of our rabbits died. So, that's just... Yeah, I can't deal with this on top of everything.
Watching: Jurassic Park III